1.What was the lowest point of your day?
Feeling so nostalgic
with each thing we did on Kody’s last day. I’m going to miss him. I will post a
picture of him swimming. He has the curliest tail, yet when he swims he straightens
it up like a periscope so he won’t get it wet. Silly puppy.
2. Today I was so sad. Putting Kody down was so hard. I think I took
it the hardest. I’m glad we were able to be with him to the end. He didn’t
suffer. They gave him one injection that calmed him, because at first he was
breathing so fast, and he had to be muzzled. Then they waited ten minutes and
gave the other injection which caused him to exhale and that was it. But when
the doctor listened to his chest, he gave him another injection as he said he
had a strong heart. Then we left him there and came home. I started cleaning up
his stuff. I guess that was my way to cope. I have to work three nights this
week. I hope I won’t be too weepy.
3. Hard night at work last night. I was very weepy, remembering
Kody’s last moments. I want to move past
that to remembering just the good times, but right now that’s the only image in
my head. I want it undone. I want him back. Also work was very busy and tonight
is Urology night, my least favourite.
4. Happy Fourth of July to my American friends and relatives, and
Happy July fourth to the Canadians.
5. I’m on vacation for 17 days! Have I mentioned I love my job?
6. We’re hosting a dinner party this evening with a Finnaican theme.
What’s that, you ask? It’s a mix of Finnish and Jamaican food. It should work.
I’m making Finnish fish soup with crisp bread, Jamaican crab cakes with a
jalapeno aioli, Finnish cucumbers vinaigrette, Jamaican curried chicken, rice
and peas, fried okra and tomatoes, fried plantain, and Finnish pancakes
(crepe-type) with fresh strawberries and whipped cream.
7. What is the last book you read? Destiny’s Hands by Violet Nesdoly
about Bezalel, the craftsman who did most of the work on the tabernacle during
the wilderness wanderings. Also, a busy day today. It was our Pastor’s last
Sunday before a three month sabbatical. Also, final practice tonight for our
DVBS play, with the secret agent theme.
8. DVBS started tonight, with two dozen kids or so. It runs so
smoothly now that it’s our third year. The play went well. I’m tired. Not as
young as I used to be.
9. Tonight was a wonky night with the play; technical difficulties and
forgotten lines. We made grilled cheese using our ninja skills, making twelve
at a time.
10. Today my youngest daughter and I went for mani-pedis. Quite nice,
but I didn’t get any writing done, unlike the past few days where I wrote about
3,000 words of fiction and 600 of non-fiction. I felt good on those days. This
afternoon I made enough mac and cheese for sixty people tonight. DVBS has grown
since the first night. There are about 40 kids. They’re loving the play and are
getting the jokes.
11. Apparently, while we were doing the first night of our DVBS on
Monday, there was a HUGE thunderstorm in Toronto that knocked out power to
300,000 people and dropped a month’s worth of rain in a few hours. Many major
roads were flooded and a GO train was also flooded as high as the bottom of the
seats on the lower level, so 1400 people, rush hour numbers were crammed into
the upper levels until 1 a.m. when the marine unit was finally able to get them
evacuated. They used two dinghies and got ten people per dinghy off the train.
At one point there was even a water snake on board, someone recorded it on
their camera. It was a good week to be on vacation and not worry about
commuting nightmares. Can you imagine if you already had a bad day at work on a
Monday and then that happens when you’re trying to get home? They were kind
Canadians, helping each other charge cell phones and sharing food and stuff. As
much of an ordeal/adventure it may have been, it’s not so bad. They were
inconvenienced, but never in any real danger. People knew where they were and
they were evacuated as quickly as possible.
12. Tonight is the last day of DVBS. The Chief (me) who has been
pre-recorded so far, will be making an appearance in person. Some kids have guessed
I am the Chief and the voice of Tracker, the dog. I will also try to make some
raspberry jam today, and get more writing done.
13. Heading to London for a family get-together since my aunt Merja is
here from Finland. We’ll stay overnight. I would have liked to hear Dr. Tony
Costa preach at our church, but we can’t do it all. He’ll be back in August.
14. We’re packing up for an attempted beach day tomorrow. We’ll do day
trips this week for our Stay-cation.
15. Beach day at Lake Simcoe, at Sibbald Point Provincial Park. Over 40
degrees Celsius today with humidity. I love relaxing by the water. I was so
relaxed I didn’t even take pictures, I just ate, slept, read, wrote, and swam.
It was so hot, I loved it. The water didn’t even require any time to get used
to it.
16. We were going to go check out the Mesopotamia exhibit at the ROM
today but decided to wait for a rainy day. We’ll enjoy the sunshine and go to
some restaurant patio instead. We have all winter to do indoor things. Summer
is short and we are on our final week of vacation, well, until our next two
weeks off in August.
17. I’m loving this heat. It’s about 45 C with humidity, or 100 F. My
husband and I drove to Cobourg and walked around the quaint small town and ate
lunch at a Greek restaurant. Then we went to Ten Thousand villages and saw an
art exhibit at the town hall.
18. Enjoyed the Mesopotamia exhibit, learning about the Sumerian,
Assyrian and Babylonian culture. The only thing I didn’t like was the slant
against anything recorded in the Bible. It’ll say, the Bible says...but
actually...
Also, they put any Biblical event like the Babylonian captivity in
quotes almost like they are calling it into question, even though they don’t do
it with other events. Yet they have Nebuchadnezzar’s documents telling about
the capture of King Jehoichin. They also messed up the Bible timeline, assuming
we believe that the tower of Babel was modelled on Nebuchadnezzars giant
ziggurat. Nebuchadnezzar was so much later, and Scripture records the tower’s
builder as Nimrod. There was also an ancient city called Nimrud. Then we
shopped at the Eaton Centre and ate out at a patio. It was stifling hot
downtown. I even ordered my first beer. Yes, at age 49! I couldn’t finish it
though. I drank about a third, and then went back to ice water, which didn’t
leave an aftertaste. Totally exhausted at the end of the day.
19. Nice day. I wrote some more. I woke the other morning, compelled
to write the chapter based on the Amalekite raid of Ziklag, of all things.
Well, what can I say? When the muse says write! I write. This book won’t write
itself. Then I went grocery shopping, and we managed to have a bbq before the
thunderstorm hit. We made steaks, grilled vegetables, salmon skewers, corn on
the cob, fresh bread and a fruit platter. Now relaxing with a glass of my faux
wine. That’s all I can drink these days because of my medications.
20. My husband and I are going to a TFC soccer game. They’ll lose,
again, I’m sure, but we’re mostly going to see Thierry Henry who plays for the
opposing team, the New York Red Bulls. I hope he won’t be off sick or injured.
Soccer games are the only time my husband will agree to wear matching shirts,
our TFC jerseys. J
21. Last full day of vacation. I will work three weeks, then I’m off
for another two. Have I mentioned I love my job?
22. Still having a hard time, thinking about Kody, even now at three
weeks. It’s hard to even drive through the neighbourhood where we used to walk.
Oh, puppy, I miss you!
23. I was back at work last night. Short staffed and very busy, but
they call it work for a reason.
24. I mailed off the blanket I made for my friend in exchange for a
painting. I think she got the short end of the stick, so I paid her. I
understand that artists should be paid for their work. My crocheting isn’t art,
just a craft, so I wouldn’t expect or want payment for it. It was something to
pass the time when my mind wasn’t 100%.
25. One more night. I wonder if I’ve just been away from work for too
long, because I feel so disorganized and overwhelmed even when I just have five
patients.
26. Errands today: dropping off full bags of dog food at the animal
shelter, dropping off old clothing at Value Village, paying bills, working on
my novel. I’m more than 1/3 of the way through. I’m aiming for about 60,000
words. Also, it’s our 27th wedding anniversary today, but we won’t
go out till next week.
27. Doctor’s appointment today. She called to discuss bloodwork
results from last week, but I already had a list of issues to discuss. I’ve
been so short of breath, even from one flight of stairs. I also think my hiatus
hernia has gotten worse. It slides up into my chest after I eat. Very
uncomfortable.
28. So I found out why I’m so winded. My iron (ferritin) is very low.
Normal is 30-300 and mine is 4. We don’t know why, so I’m starting on iron
supplements and we will check for an ulcer by another bloodtest. Also, I am
concerned about my blood sugar, and weakness in my right leg. I didn’t even
notice that I’ve been compensating for it by physically picking it up when I’m
getting dressed. I need to go back to the neurologist about that. I’m falling
apart now that I’m 49. Also my husband preached this morning. He did a good
job.
29. Early morning bloodwork done. I am weak but I don’t feel I should
call in sick to work, but I really don’t feel well. I am cold and tired and
nauseous. Yet I’m working four nights this week.
30. Somedays I prove I’m a natural blond. The mouse needed a new
battery so I changed it, yet it still wasn’t working. My husband came home,
turned the battery the right way, and surprise, it worked!
31. I didn’t go into work at all this week. Something’s not right.
Such vague symptoms. Some nausea, shortness of breath, abdominal fullness. I
don’t know what’s going on. I went back to the doctor, and she ordered an abdominal
and pelvic ultrasound for next Wednesday. I am also seeing the neurologist on Friday
about this new right leg weakness. I am falling apart here!
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