Tuesday, October 1, 2013

September 2013 Journalling

1. Great preaching today, as usual, then our daughter and son in law came to spend the night.

2. The guests we were expecting had to cancel due to sick children, but we had a family from our church over for a bbq instead. Also, today a man from our church died. He was in his early 80’s. He was saved late in life, around 65. He used to come and nod off in church, then God saved him. His wife, who is shy, was so thankful to God for saving her husband, she got up and sang Amazing Grace as a solo in front of the church. He was known as a prayer warrior. Godwin is now rejoicing with his Saviour. This is also the two month mark of when we put Kody down. I still miss my puppy. L

3. Back to school for most. Our youngest starts her last year of university next week. I wrote 2,688 words; some thru tears. I had to kill off a character, which is never easy to do.

4. My husband is going to take a seminary course beginning next week. The prof is Kirk Wellum. He feels it will help him in his teaching and preaching at church. He is auditing it, so he won’t have a twenty page paper to write, which is good since he hasn’t written one in 30 years.

5. I’m thinking I probably shouldn’t drive. My right leg doesn’t move too fast and the action of pulling my knee back to go from gas to brake doesn’t feel too good. I didn’t drive for four months this year due to mental impairment from side effects of meds, now due to leg weakness. I will miss the autonomy but it’s safer for the rest of you out on the road. I’m a little discouraged today. Thanks for coming to my pity party. No loot bags, though. Sorry.

6. The last thing I bought myself was six books at the Christian book store yesterday. That always makes me happy. Then I ordered three more on-line when I got home because they weren’t there. I also took my daughter out for breakfast yesterday. We are going to my mother-in-law’s for dinner tonight. She wants to see us before she goes on vacation to Russia. I think it’s a cruise of some sort.

7. Women of Faith meeting this morning. Pouring rain and only a few showed up. I spoke on Jesus as the Resurrection and the Life in the book of John. http://the-scarlet-thread.com/2013/09/11/christ-as-the-resurrection-and-the-life-in-the-book-of-john/#comments

8. Two guest speakers at church today since our Pastor is on sabbatical for another month. Guests staying overnight tonight. They were asking about my book and it got me excited about it. I really think it has potential.

9. Laundry and writing day. I have pain in my pelvis and right thigh when I put my weight fully on my right leg. I may go to a walk-in clinic and ask for an x-ray. I’ve only had weakness but no pain, so that concerns me. In all this time no doctor has ordered one, or even examined my leg itself, even though I tell them I feel heaviness in the groin area. Frustrating. My MRI is on Saturday, so I’ll be late for the funeral. They seem so sure the problem is in my brain but I think it’s more likely a problem in the bone. Just saying.

10. So instead of just worrying, I went into a walk-in clinic and explained the situation. The Doc ordered an x-ray of my right pelvis and femur. I’m to return tomorrow afternoon for the results.

11. The x-ray was normal. So what is this pain in my leg? This is frustrating. I just want a diagnosis so I can know what I’m dealing with.

12. Preparing for our first in-person meeting of our newly formed critique group, which we’ve named Faithful Writers, since all of us have a connection to Faith Baptist Church, and we have faith. I will serve refreshments and we will critique each other’s work, usually a first chapter. Then I will discuss POV, or point of view. I hope it goes well. We writers are a sensitive lot, and it’s hard to send our babies out into the real world.

13. I don’t know why I waited so long to be critiqued or what I was afraid of, (okay, I know), but it went so well, and was so encouraging and helpful. I want to go right back into it and improve that first chapter based on the suggestions. Also, visitation tonight at the funeral home.

14. I did the MRI this morning. It went well. I must have been nervous about it though, because I woke up at 3:30. I got up and wrote a bit, and did some research. Then we had a long day at the funeral of a man from our church. There’s nothing like the funeral of a Christian! It was Jamaican though, so that means a late start and a long day, but delicious food! The hardest part was when they lowered him into the ground. His wife was so strong, she even scooped up a shovel full of dirt and threw it in.

15. Church as usual, and a presentation by our missionaries to Nigeria, as well as refreshments. Can’t wait for the weekdays so I can rest! What a full weekend. I get the MRI result on Friday.

16. I’m exhausted from this weekend. Plus I was quite irritable yesterday. My poor husband. He says, “How come when you have PMS I get a headache?”

17. How can the days go so quickly when I’m not doing anything? I am so tired; I took a nap today. I sleep so poorly and wake up so sore because I can’t sleep in my usual positions. If I’m tired of my complaining I can only imagine how you feel hearing it.

18. I wanted to go to the Toronto Baptist Seminary Library tonight while my husband was at his course, so I could get some answers to research questions for my book, but they aren’t open Wednesday evenings. Plan B, I guess. I found a few good websites that let you ask questions. Maybe they can help.

19. Another surprise. A woman from our church has been found dead. Wow. With our Pastor still on sabbatical, we have to figure out someone else to take the funeral.

20. My neurologist appointment is today. I want a diagnosis, but not the one I’m worried about.

21. Sometimes no news is good news; other times, no news is just no news. While I’m happy the MRI was normal, I continue to have leg weakness and pain. So the plans from the neurologist are bloodwork, another MRI but lower down on the spine, and nerve conduction tests. They are ordered as non-urgent, so it could be months before I get them. In the meantime, I will talk to my doctor on Monday about returning to work, modified, even if it means sitting and doing paperwork until my stamina returns. My mind is willing, but my body is weak.

22. First day of fall and the leaves are already changing. One day I would really love to live in some hot climate. Just saying.

23. Doctor’s appointment today: New bloodwork ordered. Plan to return to work next Monday thru Wednesday for four hours times two weeks then reassess. I am sick this week with a sore throat and body aches. I’m looking forward to going back even in a limited capacity.

24. I was hoping to be productive, at least getting my bloodwork done and some groceries bought, but it’ll have to wait till tomorrow as today I feel too dizzy and fatigued.  What was it like to be healthy and do the things I wanted to do? They say it’s a sick person who understands what health is.

25. I managed to get a few errands done; my bloodwork, paying the mortgage, and buying food. Now I’m home and haven’t accomplished much else. I am a little concerned because the right side of my face is tingling the way it did before my severe facial pain started in January. It’s making me nervous. I can’t deal with that now. I have a plan in place to go back to work next week. I just have to get over this cold. My husband has his course at Seminary tonight so he won’t be home till after ten. My daughter and I will eat something he’s not a big fan of: chili.

26. I am reading Rebekah by Jill Eileen Smith. She’s one of my favourite authors of Biblical historical fiction. I hope my book can be half as good as hers.

27. My husband is going on an overnight men’s retreat, which I call a pajama party to tease him. My daughter is out overnight too. I should be happy about the time to myself, but I have enough of it in the day. I guess I’m needy, but I enjoy their company.

28. Cooking and cleaning for guests tomorrow. It’s our last guest speaker before our Pastor returns from his sabbatical. Those three months went by quickly.

29. Guests today, lots of food, great preaching.

30. I have a dental appt. this morning and then I start back to work, 3-7 Monday thru Thursday for two weeks, doing paperwork. I hope I can manage, dragging around this lump of a leg.


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