Friday, January 29, 2016

Happy New Year 2016!

January Journaling

1. Not quite a rousing start to the New Year. My husband was sick and slept till 2 p.m., my daughter undecorated the Christmas decorations for me, and I finished cleaning out a closet before I had a two hour nap. Yeah, always a party happening here!

2. I only read twenty five books last year. I fondly recall my year of seventy five books. Brain fog has made all the difference. Went for dinner at our brother-in-law’s house.

3. You know how people choose a word and it sets the course for the year? I don’t usually do that, but for some reason the word, Heaven keeps popping up. Should I be concerned? Does it mean I’ll be going there this year, or I just need to meditate on my future destination more?

4.  My mom came over for a few days and so far she’s cleaned out my spice cupboard and pantry. So nice. I’ll post a picture.

5.  Chiropractor appointment. She uses this laser which helps with some of my pain.

6.  Doctor’s appointment today, to get the results of my ultrasound. No super serious issues, but they need to repeat it because I may have gall stones.

7. They repeated my ultrasound today and apparently I have a few gallstones. I don’t know yet what the plan will be.

8.  Women’s ministry breakfast today.

9. Trying to read through the Bible in addition to the Bible studies I’m doing with the ladies. Busy week of appointments coming up.

10. More injections into my face, scalp and neck for pain control. It lasts ten weeks. They do about thirty injections. This time some of them hurt, but I keep thinking about the long term gain.

11.  Weird. For some reason I thought of my friend’s dad in Sault Ste. Marie. I hadn’t seen him for decades. Then we got a call that he died that day.

12. Naturopath appointment.

13. Three medical appointments today. One of them made me vomit. Yeah, not nice.

14.I went to babysit my grandson today so my daughter could get stuff done. Of course I had help, my mom came over with me. And I needed to nap two hours while there. But so nice to see him. He’s almost one year old.

15. So uncomfortable. Yet I don’t see my doctor for another week.

16. Really? First a parade, then a whole week, and now they’re planning a month. Ridiculous. Even people who died for our country only get one day of recognition.

17.Dental appointment today.

18. I cancelled my appointments for the rest of the week. I can’t.

19. My daughter and grandson came to stay over for two nights. I love having him here, but I need two hour naps each day.

20. Our little grandson loves animal noises, especially bumblebees buzzing.

21.I went to my doctor today. The plan is to get a surgical consult about my gallstones. Sigh.

22. I wonder how long it’ll be before I can get to see the surgeon. My gallstone pain happens almost daily.

23. Really exhausted. I nap all the time and climbing a flight of stairs is hard. I feel like I’m wearing a suit of armour. So discouraging since I had been improving recently.

24. Our grandson had his first birthday party today. He’ll be one in a week. He had sugar for the first time with his carrot cake and he was buzzing. He’s so cute.

25. I’ve accepted the leadership of the Women’s Ministry team at church for two years. I think I can manage it only because there is a team to help and also the retreat is planned by another group of women.

26.  I’m cancelling even my medical appointments. I just can’t.

27. I’ll be seeing the surgeon February 11th. I hope I don’t get a gallstone attack before then.

28. Pajama day. Don’t show up at my door. You’ve been warned.

29. I have lots to do but I’m pinned to the couch in pain.

30.  I need to vent. I didn't realize how well my pain was controlled till it came back. Yep, I hate it just as much as before.

31.  Feeling disappointed and a little angry. CPP disability denied my claim. They seem to think my pain is completely gone and I can work. Yeah, right.

Friday, January 1, 2016


December Journaling

1.  Sunday. Nice to be in church.

2.  Our eldest had an interview for a Social Work job. Her mat leave ends in February. Sad, another mass shooting, this time in California.

3. Treatment, and also trying to finish up my summary of the book of Genesis for Tuesday.

4. Packing to go to London tomorrow for our Finnish side of the family’s Christmas. I hope I can handle the crowds, noise, lights. Happy to be seeing our grandson.

5.Pikku-Joulu, which means Little Christmas.

6. Home from London.

7.  Appointments.

8. Rest day. I need to recover.

9. Appointment.

10.  Appointments. So tired.

11. Took the train to babysit my grandson this evening while my daughter and son in law went to a Christmas party. He’s so adorable. I’ll post a picture of Disco Benny. Pointing is his new thing. He’s also pulling himself to stand, cruising on furniture and able to stand independently for short periods. He also said, “All done” today. We all looked around and said, “Did you hear that, too?”

12.  Returned from visiting my grandson. Exhausted. Our daughter is home from Law school, although she still has one take home exam the day before Christmas Eve.

13. We got our real Christmas tree today, my husband and daughter picked it out. We’ll decorate in a day or so. We had our church Christmas program this evening. Short and sweet.

14. I read an article from the Toronto Star on sex trafficking. Beyond sad, and so prevalent in Ontario.

15. My mom is coming over to bake more cookies. I just watch.

16. I had to go downtown for an appointment with my tenth specialist this year. He was a fibromyalgia specialist and after he assessed me, he suggested I keep doing what I’m doing.

17.  Appointments. I’m going to take a break from them for two weeks.

18. A day off. Decorating our tree and baking cookies.

19. So much violence in Toronto this past month.

20. Church. A three hour nap. So tired.

21. My mom came by to bake cookies and make lasagna for a Maternity home. I watched. She also cleaned my fridge and a few other things. So helpful. I feel so useless. Also I went for an ultrasound.

22. Grocery shopping, so that means a rotisserie chicken from there for dinner. I can’t do both.

23. Our daughter wrote her final exam today, from home. Eight hours. Now she can relax.

24.  Christmas Eve or Joulu in Finnish. We will be celebrating at my sister’s house. My daughter is going to miss it because she has to help out our other daughter because she’s replacing someone who was scheduled to sing at church because the woman’s father in law died.

25. Today is Christmas Day and we’re going to my brother-in-law’s home. We do a gift exchange. Our grandson will be staying over tonight.

26. A day off.

27. Church.

28. Very concerned about abdominal and back pain. Even with fibro, which is random pain everywhere, this is in a few specific spots constantly. And my abdomen is bloated and keeps growing. I’m also nauseous. Trying not to get into my worst-case-scenario mode, but something is definitely wrong. My doctor should get the ultrasound report soon.

29. I purged and shredded 30 years’ worth of household bills.

30. So uncomfortable. What’s wrong with me, other than the usual?
31.New Years’ Eve at home with my husband. Relaxed is our new normal.